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It's Monday and it's very very quiet.
Just me and the purr and fur gang.
I took my son back to his University on Friday.
My daughter flew away on Sunday.
Last night, I was tired.
I noticed it a bit.
This morning, I couldn't sleep.
Got up around four.
Noticed it again.
Both doors were open
with just a cat napping
on each of their beds.
on each of their beds.
So, today it is quiet.
Will be that way for quite a while.
Phone calls of course but mostly
it will be me and the Purr and Fur Gang
while we enjoy our woods.
A time when I will get used to many things.
One being that my Dear Maddy Jean
is probably on her way to another place.
I got home from my long drive to and from
taking my son to school .. five hours each way,
to a message from our vet.
The cancer expert feels that Maddy Jean's
cancer may have spread due to it being
such a nasty type of cancer.
I'm supposed to get x rays and other
tests done on her to see what's going on.
I'll get an estimate for that soon.
Today, I take her in to get her stitches out.
She has healed for sure in the big incision.
The smaller one .. and by small I mean five inches,
is sort of healed.
I will do the tests later.
For now, I just want to enjoy my Maddy Jean
while we sit in the woods watching Jodie Belle
play and remember what the quiet things in
life are all about.
I think if I lose my Maddy Jean
I will not be able to make it.
I just can't even believe that this has happened.
And, as I type this, I am again crying.
For the puppy I bought home,
the promises I made her,
that she would be safe now.
I lied.
~ JC ~
9 comments:
Hugs, Light and purrs to you both.
You're not Fate, or the Creator or whatever you want to call the Unknowable, so I don't think Maddy Jean will hold that so-called lie against you. She loves you unconditionally, no matter what.
We're hoping and purraying for the very best outcome, for her Highest Good. Please don't hesitate to get a second opinion if you feel it's warranted, or even for your own peace of mind (depending on what your vet says after the further tests.)
I am so sorry. Sending you love and hugs. Enjoy your time with Maddy Jean as much as you can.
I am so sorry to hear about Maddy Jean. I know how difficult this must be, but you have given her a lovely and fun life. Know that and find peace with it. Oh, I know it is hard... so hard. My best to you ALL - Fur and Purr Gang, and peoples too.
They werenot empty promises JC, you have given her love and a good home, and as Fuzzy Tales said she in return loves you unconditionally.
You are doing and will continue to do the best for her...Sending hugs and love.
Rose H
xx
You have been the best medicine by loving her. Hugs to you.
You made me cry, too, so I'm sending big hugs your way - for everybody including you and the fur gang. You didn't lie to Maddy Jean and I'm sure she knows it. She loves you as much as you love her.
No, you have kept all of your promises to her. You have given her a safe haven for the duration of her time on earth. No one could have done more. But it will soon be time for her to walk the Rainbow Bridge, to romp and play with sweet Bella, to wait for you and her other siblings.
While you feel that you cannot go on, what about Jodie, and all the purr gang? Don't they still need you? And won't they still support you?
This is the hardest part of having dogs and cats in our lives.
My prayers are with you.
Beth here....I know just how you feel....when I lost my Taylor to bone cancer and then my Samuel next....I thought I couldn't go on....I was SO sad....but time passes and we know that God has things happen as they as suppose to.... Remington came into my life and I enjoy every day with my friend.... I feel so badly for you and Maddie Jean....enjoy your time together and know that it is NOT your fault....you have been the friend you promised her you would be....and loved her as you promised her you would....that is what you need to focus on....take care, my friend....
How could I have missed this important news. Oh I am grieved to read this dear friend. This is Katie Isabella's mommy. Katie will be over in a while. I'll tell her about Maddie Jean. She will be so saddened just as I am.
PLEASE get a second opinion if you can and meanwhile I am really really praying hard for a good outcome and don't even think Maddie Jean doesn't know how much you love her. She does. And she returns that love. XXXOOO
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