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It's Monday and it's very very quiet.
Just me and the purr and fur gang.
I took my son back to his University on Friday.
My daughter flew away on Sunday.
Last night, I was tired.
I noticed it a bit.
This morning, I couldn't sleep.
Got up around four.
Noticed it again.
Both doors were open
with just a cat napping
on each of their beds.
on each of their beds.
So, today it is quiet.
Will be that way for quite a while.
Phone calls of course but mostly
it will be me and the Purr and Fur Gang
while we enjoy our woods.
A time when I will get used to many things.
One being that my Dear Maddy Jean
is probably on her way to another place.
I got home from my long drive to and from
taking my son to school .. five hours each way,
to a message from our vet.
The cancer expert feels that Maddy Jean's
cancer may have spread due to it being
such a nasty type of cancer.
I'm supposed to get x rays and other
tests done on her to see what's going on.
I'll get an estimate for that soon.
Today, I take her in to get her stitches out.
She has healed for sure in the big incision.
The smaller one .. and by small I mean five inches,
is sort of healed.
I will do the tests later.
For now, I just want to enjoy my Maddy Jean
while we sit in the woods watching Jodie Belle
play and remember what the quiet things in
life are all about.
I think if I lose my Maddy Jean
I will not be able to make it.
I just can't even believe that this has happened.
And, as I type this, I am again crying.
For the puppy I bought home,
the promises I made her,
that she would be safe now.
I lied.
~ JC ~
