Monday, August 20, 2012

Quiet Monday

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It's Monday and it's very very quiet.
Just me and the purr and fur gang.

I took my son back to his University on Friday.
My daughter flew away on Sunday.

Last night, I was tired.
I noticed it a bit.
This morning, I couldn't sleep.
Got up around four.
Noticed it again.

Both doors were open
with just a cat napping
 on each of their beds.

So, today it is quiet.
Will be that way for quite a while.

Phone calls of course but mostly
it will be me and the Purr and Fur Gang
while we enjoy our woods.

A time when I will get used to many things.
One being that my Dear Maddy Jean
is probably on her way to another place.


I got home from my long drive to and from
taking my son to school .. five hours each way,
to a message from our vet.

The cancer expert feels that Maddy Jean's
cancer may have spread due to it being
such a nasty type of cancer.

I'm supposed to get x rays and other
tests done on her to see what's going on.

I'll get an estimate for that soon.

Today, I take her in to get her stitches out.
She has healed for sure in the big incision.
The smaller one .. and by small I mean five inches,
is sort of healed.

I will do the tests later.
For now, I just want to enjoy my Maddy Jean
while we sit in the woods watching Jodie Belle
play and remember what the quiet things in
life are all about.

I think if I lose my Maddy Jean
I will not be able to make it.
I just can't even believe that this has happened.

And, as I type this, I am again crying.
For the puppy I bought home,
the promises I made her,
that she would be safe now.
I lied.

~ JC ~

9 comments:

Fuzzy Tales said...

Hugs, Light and purrs to you both.

You're not Fate, or the Creator or whatever you want to call the Unknowable, so I don't think Maddy Jean will hold that so-called lie against you. She loves you unconditionally, no matter what.

We're hoping and purraying for the very best outcome, for her Highest Good. Please don't hesitate to get a second opinion if you feel it's warranted, or even for your own peace of mind (depending on what your vet says after the further tests.)

Pam said...

I am so sorry. Sending you love and hugs. Enjoy your time with Maddy Jean as much as you can.

Webster said...

I am so sorry to hear about Maddy Jean. I know how difficult this must be, but you have given her a lovely and fun life. Know that and find peace with it. Oh, I know it is hard... so hard. My best to you ALL - Fur and Purr Gang, and peoples too.

Rose H (UK) said...

They werenot empty promises JC, you have given her love and a good home, and as Fuzzy Tales said she in return loves you unconditionally.
You are doing and will continue to do the best for her...Sending hugs and love.
Rose H
xx

Meg & Quill said...

You have been the best medicine by loving her. Hugs to you.

Sally in WA said...

You made me cry, too, so I'm sending big hugs your way - for everybody including you and the fur gang. You didn't lie to Maddy Jean and I'm sure she knows it. She loves you as much as you love her.

Judy said...

No, you have kept all of your promises to her. You have given her a safe haven for the duration of her time on earth. No one could have done more. But it will soon be time for her to walk the Rainbow Bridge, to romp and play with sweet Bella, to wait for you and her other siblings.
While you feel that you cannot go on, what about Jodie, and all the purr gang? Don't they still need you? And won't they still support you?
This is the hardest part of having dogs and cats in our lives.
My prayers are with you.

Remington said...

Beth here....I know just how you feel....when I lost my Taylor to bone cancer and then my Samuel next....I thought I couldn't go on....I was SO sad....but time passes and we know that God has things happen as they as suppose to.... Remington came into my life and I enjoy every day with my friend.... I feel so badly for you and Maddie Jean....enjoy your time together and know that it is NOT your fault....you have been the friend you promised her you would be....and loved her as you promised her you would....that is what you need to focus on....take care, my friend....

Ramblingon said...

How could I have missed this important news. Oh I am grieved to read this dear friend. This is Katie Isabella's mommy. Katie will be over in a while. I'll tell her about Maddie Jean. She will be so saddened just as I am.

PLEASE get a second opinion if you can and meanwhile I am really really praying hard for a good outcome and don't even think Maddie Jean doesn't know how much you love her. She does. And she returns that love. XXXOOO

There comes a time in your life when you walk away from all of the drama and the people who create it. You surround yourself with people who make you laugh. Forget the bad and focus on the good. Love the people who treat you right and pray for those who don’t. Life is too short to be anything but happy. Falling down is part of life, getting back up is living.

~ Jose N. Harris

Characters In My Garden

Purr Gang ~ My five cats

Cats ~ Al, Ashton Rosevelt, Jasmine Marie, Riley Andrew & Meredith Ann

Fur Gang ~ Jodie Isabella and Sally Jean
(The Original member, Sweet Bella is in memory only now. Maddy Jean, another original member, past away in August of 2014)

Mr. Boatman ~ my husband who likes boats

DD ~ my daughter who graduated and is now out living in the real world

DS or Dson ~ my son is studying computer science and math



Maddy Jean & Bella

Maddy Jean & Bella
Both gone but never forgotten

Jodie Isabella

Jodie Isabella

Al

Al
I adopted him from our local Humane Society

Ashton

Ashton
Adopted from my local horse supply store

Jasmine

Jasmine
I adopted her from Purrfect Pals

Riley

Riley
I adopted him from the local Humane Society

Meredith Ann

Meredith Ann
I adopted her from Purrfect Pals