Thinking Out Loud

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It's been quiet.

Just me and the purr and fur gang and my thoughts.

The weather has been entertaining to say the least.

Wind, yucky stuff from the trees everywhere.

Hail storms that freeze and look like it snowed in April.

Sun that decides to shine at all of us.

Big smile from me and the purr and fur gang for that.

Birds that wake me up later than the gang would like.

Jodie Belle likes to get me up early early early.

Think Collie nose checking to see if I am a wake.

She's a silly little girl.

 

Since I am feeling a bit better,

I now have time to figure out what's next.

I have two months before I have to go back

to my favorite hospital for tests and results.

 

I look around this old house and I see a million things

that need to be cleaned or thrown away or just done.

 

My two kids are coming home soon from college.

I've been cleaning up a bit due to their arrival.

 

I've been thinking about my life.

What to do and not and that kind of thing.

 

In a purrfect world, I'd never get sick again.

Would be able to walk and hike without pain.

Oh, that's a big dream right there.

Not going to happen but I can still put it on the list.

 

In a purrfect world, I'd be happy.

I'm not really.

I think the six weeks of recovery and the months before

did me in emotionally and physically of course.

I'm tired and don't know what I want to do.

 

I'd love to go to the Ocean for a bit

but who who take care of the purr and fur gang.

Maybe those kids that are coming home.

That's my thought.

I'll take my time driving there.

It's about four hours away.

That's one thought.

 

Only when I get done, I have to come back

and that's where I need to work on the

being happy part.

 

Like I said, it's a mental thing.

Got to work on it.

Improving myself.

Hard to believe that at my age,

I'm not thrilled with who I am.

 

I wish I were a member of the purr gang.

They seem happy most of the time

except when Riley is chasing

 Meredith Ann and Jasmine.

Then there's a lot of screaming going on.

 

I'm good at yelling.

See, I could be a cat.

Siamese or Torie, please.

 

Just thinking out loud over here in the woods.

~ JC ~

This & That ...

The last couple of days have been tough.

Hard.

I've been out of sorts.

I know I've been tired.

Fighting headaches.

I'm not lost just on vacation.

Maybe it's the end of the year blues.

Only I'm not really blue.

I'm more a grey blue green.

Even though I don't like green.

I'm thinking a lot.

Not crazy just wondering.

Too much sadness in the world.

Not sure what I should do.

Getting lost along the way.

Taking a break from what was.

Trying to find the new.

Figuring things out.

That kind of thing would be easy by now.

Not in my teens or my 30's.

Tomorrow will come.

I'm sure I'll be better.

Not that I'm sick.

Til then I'm going to sip some tea.

Pet a cat or two.

Talk to my girls.

Enjoy a recorded show.

When Mr. Boatman comes home

And asks what I did today

I'm going to say ..

Oh I don't know

This & that

You won't tell on me

Will you ...

Progress was made

It's the end of Summer at my house

My daughter already went back to college

My son goes to High School tomorrow

The leaves are starting to fall

On my lawn & driveway

The chill is in the morning air

I was thinking about

What I wanted to do

And what I actually got done

The weeds that I pulled

Have grown back

The lawn isn't as green

As I would like it

My house is getting fixed

Slowly

The paint has been picked out

But who knows when it will be done

Inside I have lots of things to clean up

The bonus room was supposed  to

Be totally cleared out

Now it looks worse than it did before

I'm fine with it all

Progress was made

I had a Grand Time

Which is what I like about

Summer

How was your Summer ?

Did you do what you had planned ?