Friday, November 1, 2013

What Can I Say

What can I say.
I just got back from my kidney Dr. appointment.
Not the best news.
Not at all.
 
My left kidney was functioning at 17 % before
my fancy reconstructive surgery last February.
It is now at 11 %.
My Dr. takes them out at 10 to 5 %.
 
Thus, I am being scheduled for surgery on my right kidney.
It has two rather large stones.
Normally, they would sit there for life.
In a bad spot.
 
I am having  my right kidney prepared for one kidney ville.
Yes, the left, it will be leaving me sooner than I would like.
 
My right kidney may take two surgeries.
He told me he hopes only one.
During this surgery, he will be able to scan the left.
Wants to know what's going on.
He can't do anything to it without losing more function.
 
So, there you go.
One, two or three more kidney surgeries.
 
I think I took it well.
Wrote notes.
Got medications.
Smiled. Laughed.
 
Danced in the office before he came in.
Got a coffee before hand this time.
 
After I called Mr. Boatman to tell him the great news,
I went to Target.
Had to get yogurt for the girls dinner.
I give them some in their food.
 
I'm home now.
Wrote my kids a note.
My son was worried.
He's a nice kid. Really nice.
 
And, now as I write this the tears are starting.
I think it has gotten to me.
It's ok though cause the cats and dogs don't care.
 
Being brave is hard sometimes.
 
Just saying ...
 
Don't forget to dance.
Do it for me.
 
~ JC ~

14 comments:

William said...

We are so so sorry to read this and wish things would get better or at least level off. We will all keep you in our thoughts.

And P.S. We think you are *very* brave.

Fuzzy Tales said...

I wish it were better news. I don't know why life poses so many challenges for some and seemingly not for others. There's nothing fair about it, yet nothing we can do about it. Except dance. And yes, I shall, for you.

Purrs from the boys, Light and peace from me.

Blessings.

Meg & Quill said...

I'm sorry the news, hugs and purrs to you.

ANGEL ABBY said...

I'm so very sorry to hear the news is not better. I can not say I have experienced the things you are going through right now, but I can feel the fear and uncertainty. YOU have every right to feel those things. But know it will get better. It won't stay like this. I have found so far, for me the worst of any bad situation is always the fear I have going into it. Once I get through it I am so much more at ease. I may not like it but my fear abates. I hope that it will be the same for you. I hope I am not speaking out of turn and I do want you to know I am not trying to add any to the burden your heart is feeling. I wish words could give you the comfort you need. I will keep you in my prayers.

xoxoxo

Brian said...

Pardon me for saying, but dammit. But the cats do care and so do we and we wish it were better news too. Just do what you have been doing, face it and whip it. hugs and love from all of us.

Laoch of Chicago said...

Thinking kind thoughts for you.

Laila and Minchie said...

Well, that just sucks big time! We will be with you in spirit and prayers and purrs to help you stay brave. (((hugs)))

Rose H (UK) said...

I think you're allowed a tear or two JC. I shall dance in the moonlight for you. Sending you a huge{{HUG}} and all the most positive thoughts I can muster.
Love
Rose H
xxx

missy said...

Sounds like your right kidney is OK except for stones?? If that's the case..lots of people live a long time with one kidney...Life has thrown you some hurdles but I know you can jump High...

Judy said...

My heart goes out to you!!! I know you count each day as a blessing, but maybe there could be better news to go along with the blessing...

Hilary said...

It is very hard sometimes to be brave. I ask myself what are the choices? be brave, or be a basket case.
Nah, you don't want to do that any more than I do.
Just do one day at a time. I'm
praying for you.
It'll be ok, I tell myself that every day.

Ramblingon said...

Dear one, I wish I had your email but as I don't I will say I continue to remember you and pray.

Hartwood Roses said...

This is certainly crappy news ... but not as crappy as it could have been, as you said. I will be thinking of you, wishing right along with you that things go as expected, or a bit better.

KathyB. said...

Oh...this makes me sad. I am glad you have your fur & purr gang to comfort you. You're right, what a good son you have.

There comes a time in your life when you walk away from all of the drama and the people who create it. You surround yourself with people who make you laugh. Forget the bad and focus on the good. Love the people who treat you right and pray for those who don’t. Life is too short to be anything but happy. Falling down is part of life, getting back up is living.

~ Jose N. Harris

Characters In My Garden

Purr Gang ~ My five cats

Cats ~ Al, Ashton Rosevelt, Jasmine Marie, Riley Andrew & Meredith Ann

Fur Gang ~ Jodie Isabella and Sally Jean
(The Original member, Sweet Bella is in memory only now. Maddy Jean, another original member, past away in August of 2014)

Mr. Boatman ~ my husband who likes boats

DD ~ my daughter who graduated and is now out living in the real world

DS or Dson ~ my son is studying computer science and math



Maddy Jean & Bella

Maddy Jean & Bella
Both gone but never forgotten

Jodie Isabella

Jodie Isabella

Al

Al
I adopted him from our local Humane Society

Ashton

Ashton
Adopted from my local horse supply store

Jasmine

Jasmine
I adopted her from Purrfect Pals

Riley

Riley
I adopted him from the local Humane Society

Meredith Ann

Meredith Ann
I adopted her from Purrfect Pals