I sit here in the den.
Having my meowning coffee.
Eeyore cup from the time I went to Disney World.
Yes, in my younger years, I did travel a bit.
I watch the rain drops fall.
And, were they ever.
Drip, drip and pour.
Jodie Belle is napping.
One eye always open.
Like dogs do.
Meredith Ann is by the door.
Looking at the hallway.
Always knowing who's coming by.
Meaning, she needs to know where her fellow cat mates are.
She's just an organized kitty cat.
Nah, she doesn't like her bros much.
Unless, I'm wrong and hissing is a sign of love.
Me, I'm having sliced strawberries and banana.
My son went to the store for me last night.
It was really for him but he asked if I wanted anything.
That way I pay for things and he gets his junk foods.
I've tried with him but those goldfish still follow him home.
At least he's getting the whole wheat kind.
As my world continues on, my heart is beating wildly with it.
The last week or so I've been humming to my own tunes.
This heart of mine has a plan.
Go fast.
Reminds me of Ricky Bobby with his new friend, Karen.
(You'd have to have seen the car scene in the movie.)
My normal heart Dr. told me that I was fine.
I'm on meds twice a day.
My heart beats twice as fast as normal.
Thus, when I've had my two kidney surgeries,
I wake up to many people.
My heart Dr. has been er called to see me.
(he's in the same hospital)
I go to the critical care unit.
Whatever that means.
I have code blue and greys heard around me.
(Not me, the rooms next to me.)
(Not me, the rooms next to me.)
And, yet I'm told nothings wrong with my heart.
My special special heart Dr. wants to operate.
Two things he wants to fix.
Only my normal heart Dr. says it's too risky.
Why not just take meds and beat away.
Oh these Dr's.
What to they know ?
It's fun being in a battle with your own old body.
So, I will just try not to pass out.
I do that from time to time.
(not this year but several times previously)
I will drink my coffee and enjoy the day.
And, I will always be reminded that today is special.
As my heart reminds me to name that tune.
Remember to dance. Even for a moment.
~ JC ~
13 comments:
I like your flowers. Violas are one of my favourite flowers. Quite tasty, you know... purrs
Sometimes Drs do not have all the answers and yet our body does. Thinking of you!
cats of wildcat woods
doctors don't really know. they guess just like the rest of us only we hope they are guessing from a larger store of knowledge. but, after all, what doctors do is called a practice. see, they practice being a doctor on all of us.
I hope your coffee is Decaf..If a Dr is a surgeon, he's going to want to operate because that's what he does..If it can be handled medically..why not?
The flowers are so lovely and when you take time to really look at them, they are miracles. So is your heart! A miracle that beats too fast but keeps on going. I hope the docs get their heads together and really help you, meanwhile, the cats warm purring and company probably does more to calm the heart and encourage you than a whole building full of doctors. Too bad you can't have a purring cat I your hospital bed with you.
I hope surgery is a last resort.
I love the sweet faces on violas and have plenty in my garden too.
Go with what your body tells you, it knows the best thing for it.
{{Hugs}}
Rose H
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da mom dun't like dr.'z much, she sayz dey ain't gonna "practice" on her! she sayz she payz dem to KNOW what they're doin....... she sayz she knowz her body better......,
so den why duz she take us to da V E T Z!?! don't dey "practice" too?? ^..^ *shaking headz*
We like your violaz ^.,^
and it'z raing here too ! ^..^
♥♥xoxo♥♥ ^..^x5
I feel like I'm sitting right there with you. I didn't get hissed at though.
I feel as though mom and I also are there...we often do. Xxoo
Surgeons just know how to cut. I would defer to the other heart doc and go the, safer, non-permanent route. Give the pills a chance to still your beating heart.
I will keep you in my prayers, JC and wish you the very best...Listen to your heart and your gut and I believe your body will tell you what you need to do; always find another Doctor if you are not satisfied, even if it's just a feeling...Take care and yes, cherish the moments=they are precious...Hugs.
And this time of year is so beautiful - don't want to miss a step!!!
Thank you for all your kind comments, both about my Dad, and my photos!!!
The more I see of doctors, the more I realise the less they know, if you know what I mean. The more god-like one acts, the more ignorant he is of the problem. The ones who act human may not know any more, but they are nicer to deal with.
Take care.
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