What's been going on is the Fall blahs.
The get used to staying inside blues.
I like blue but still I would like to be outside.
Not all the time, but I do enjoy the yellow.
It just makes for a nicer day.
I have my normal routine.
Feed the cats, let Maddy Jean out.
Fix her breakfast.
If I'm lucky, I can start coffee.
Her Golden face will be at the door.
She just loves breakfast.
Since Bella past away, we've been giving
her a bit of canned dog food.
What I call, Stinky Goodness.
I can make a can last four or five days.
She just needs to have a bit
mashed into her food.
All because she was missing her sister
so much that she wouldn't eat.
After that, she goes back outside to sit on her deck.
Me, I get my coffee and sit by the puter.
I check this and that and play or write a bit.
Then, the list is made.
What I want to get done for the day.
Without that list, I sometimes don't
get anything of great importance done.
You know how that goes,
Mr. Boatman gets home
and asks what I did that day.
Nothing ...
So, that is my Fall inside blue blahs ..
What to do with myself.
I know, I'm lucky that I don't work.
To tell the truth I couldn't work if I wanted to.
I have no real skills.
And, that darn brain that was sort of damaged
well it gets in the way sometimes.
Never know when those lovely headaches will arrive.
Makes it hard to make appointments or volunteer.
Anyway, I thought I'd bring this up.
That I've been looking over my life.
Going over what I could do.
What I want to do.
What I need to do.
It's just hard sometimes to decide.
I do appreciate that I have had these
almost six years to do whatever
I was supposed to do.
Only I don't know if I have.
I don't really even know
what I was supposed to do.
And, these are my thoughts on this Thankful
or Thoughtful Thursday.
~ JC ~
5 comments:
Beth here -- I hear you. I don't work any more either. Some days I think I SHOULD be doing "something". But whatever it is that God wants me to do....maybe I am already doing it....
Beth ~ You know what I mean. My six year anniversary from waking up from my coma is coming up in January. I do sometimes wonder why I woke up. Why me .. I'm just a simply gal who lives a quiet life. I have rescued a lot of cats and taken care of my two kids. Maybe that's why I came back. Yes, I did the whole white lights, come with us thing. Said no had to feed the cats. Really ... that's what I remember.
Anyway, I do so much better with a bit of sunshine so I can go out in the yard with Maddy Jean. This being dark so early is crazy nuts.
Off to do that every popular list of mine ... keeps me busy.
I think a person can only do what he or she believes they should; anything else is just filling in time. Some day, God will let us know whether we did right or wrong. Until then, the best we can do will have to suffice.
Scott says he knows what you mean! We're sorry Scott's been too busy to help us visit! Oliver, Ruby and Rose
Well I know I would have missed out on a lot these past 6 years if you hadn't come back to feed the cats. I am very glad you did. And it makes me so happy to see you exercising your creativity with your writing because I know I can take a little credit!
How about a book?
I have been thinking about that a lot lately.
Think about it-- but not too much. Just start something. See where it goes!
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