What's been going on is the Fall blahs.
The get used to staying inside blues.
I like blue but still I would like to be outside.
Not all the time, but I do enjoy the yellow.
It just makes for a nicer day.
I have my normal routine.
Feed the cats, let Maddy Jean out.
Fix her breakfast.
If I'm lucky, I can start coffee.
Her Golden face will be at the door.
She just loves breakfast.
Since Bella past away, we've been giving
her a bit of canned dog food.
What I call, Stinky Goodness.
I can make a can last four or five days.
She just needs to have a bit
mashed into her food.
All because she was missing her sister
so much that she wouldn't eat.
After that, she goes back outside to sit on her deck.
Me, I get my coffee and sit by the puter.
I check this and that and play or write a bit.
Then, the list is made.
What I want to get done for the day.
Without that list, I sometimes don't
get anything of great importance done.
You know how that goes,
Mr. Boatman gets home
and asks what I did that day.
Nothing ...
So, that is my Fall inside blue blahs ..
What to do with myself.
I know, I'm lucky that I don't work.
To tell the truth I couldn't work if I wanted to.
I have no real skills.
And, that darn brain that was sort of damaged
well it gets in the way sometimes.
Never know when those lovely headaches will arrive.
Makes it hard to make appointments or volunteer.
Anyway, I thought I'd bring this up.
That I've been looking over my life.
Going over what I could do.
What I want to do.
What I need to do.
It's just hard sometimes to decide.
I do appreciate that I have had these
almost six years to do whatever
I was supposed to do.
Only I don't know if I have.
I don't really even know
what I was supposed to do.
And, these are my thoughts on this Thankful
or Thoughtful Thursday.
~ JC ~
