I'm starting Over

Today I am starting over.
 I am evaluating my life path.

Not that I'm not happy. I am.
Things are out of control.

My old body doesn't like me.
I went on the scale yesterday

and I'm sure most of you heard the
 SCREAMS.

How did this happen .. again ?

I was underweight as a child.
Thin ... wind would blow me away.

Started to gain the lovely pounds
when I was in High School.

Fought the extras and finally lost
 most of them during college.

I did have a year there where I gained a lot.
 Boyfriend problems.

What am I going to do after college problems.
No money problems.

I lost that weight. Gained it back.
Lost that weight. Gained more.

Lost that weight and some.
 Kept it off for a week or two.

Gained it all back and then some.

And, this has happened to me  to the point where now

 I'm very very very very over weight.

Just a year ago, I'd lost thirty of those nasty chubs.
 I felt better about myself.
Now, very slowly they have crept back.

Leading up to yesterday and my SCREAMS.

I got my hair cut at a new local yesterday and two doors down was a closed ... yes, I checked ... Weight Watchers den. I've been there before.
The cattle drive for weigh in is enough
 to drive a grown old lady to drink
 ... an extra loaded with calories ...
mocha with whip cream.

So, I did the on line WW ... see I know the lingo.
 Did that for years. Even formed a Cat Lover's group.

Decided not to pay each month just to talk with friends. Besides, they don't monitor the groups
so any mean spirited ...
and who isn't when they're not eating ...

person can comment.
 And, we all know how mean spirited comments can ruin

any one's day.
 So, I stopped visiting WW.

Only now ... here I am ... all "fill in the blank" pounds of me.

 Mad, sad, upset to say the least, frustrated, how the hell did this happen to me again, what the heck, how's a gal who can't walk too well supposed to walk it off,
 and you get the idea.

Back to counting calories, journaling, not eating ...
and hoping once again ...

 to weigh what it says on my driver's license.

I just found a new blog ... may it be of help to me ...

 B-Well Report

I'll keep you posted and let you know how it's going.

 It's my blog. I get to do that.

Now, off to get my blue notebook
and journal what I had for breakfast.

Does anyone know how many calories for cat fur in your coffee ?

~ JC ~