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I'm worn out in my soul. I don't know what it is about stress that does that to me. It's a silly thing really. I'm taking this class with Jodie to learn how to do the basic puppy things. Like sit, stay, walk with me, don't run out of the door into who knows what. Anyway, I found a great mid day class for us. It started about four weeks ago. Supposed to be up to seven puppies. Nope, just us. There was someone by her self. For the first two weeks, she said her puppy was on the way. She even paid for the class. Nope, she's been gone the last two weeks. Jodie loves going for her sort of private lessons. Today though I was told that there are two other night classes that the owner would like me to consider. Only consider wasn't quite the word. I explained to our nice trainer that I don't drive at night due to my coma. Bad eyes and all that stuff. So, I am in a bit of a what to do situation here. The owner of the training company is supposed to call me. Not her fault no one signed up. Not her fault I don't do night driving. Not my fault my nice mid day class is sort of being cancelled. Will I get my money back, I don't know. It did cost a lot. Was supposed to be a twelve week class. Star Puppy I guess Jodie will not be.
It's just a silly class. No big deal. Only it was and is for me. It's the first time since my coma six years ago that I have ventured out into the real world. I don't interact with people much. This is the first time I've done anything like this. So, now I have to say no to this evening class. Not get my money back. And, find something else.
The thing is if I did do a night class I wouldn't have done one in the middle of no where in the dark. This is on a country one lane road with no lights at night. The other classes at night were much closer to me and have lights on their roads.
So, I'm worn out from the world not working for me. This having been in a coma is a bummer sometimes. Just saying. Not that big a deal with all that's going on in the world but it's just typical for me. Oh well, wasn't meant to be.
~ JC ~
( Things that are simple for other people aren't for me. Like going to a class at night. Big deal for me. Can I do it ? Even during the day, I deal with migraines and being dizzy but I manage because it's daylight and I make myself do it. Night is different. I'm a bit mad and sad at the same time. I wanted this for me and for Jodie. We were supposed to have three in the class and now I have to ask for my money back which I don't think they'll give to me. I just wish something would go right for me. It was just a puppy class. Not solving world peace. Couldn't it have gone right for Jodie and for me. Just saying. I feel better writing this out. I was thinking on the way home how silly this was. Nothing important at all. Only it was for me.)
