Maddy Jean is eating !!!
I bought cans of Cesar dog food.
She loves it.
We are at the beach this weekend.
I was doing fine until I gave Maddy Jean a bone.
My girls would sit and I'd give Bella a bone first.
Since she was the oldest.
And, Maddy Jean would get hers after her sissy.
Now, I give out one bone.
Maddy Jean still waits a moment for her sissy.
It's getting better.
It is.
I went in the bathroom an bawled my eyes out.
I'm going on two weeks now .. almost.
It's just that her chair that she sat in is empty.
It's so quiet.
I didn't know she made so much noise.
It's a new life for us.
Maddy Jean and I.
We brought Meredith Ann with us.
She seems to know that I'm sad.
She's a smart one.
And, this will get better.
I know it will.
And, it was.
It's just those little things
that catch you and
you realize that your heart is not healed.
I am broken.
I am without my Dear Sweet Bella.
And, if you can't tell,
I'm still annoyed as hell at the Universe
for taking my Sweet Bella away.
(put in all sorts of words
and imagine an old lady
yelling at the world)
~ JC ~
