Thursday, October 3, 2013

It's Odd

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It's odd what you write on a blog.
It's like a diary.
I had one as a teen aged girl.
My dreams.
My hopes.
The cute one that I liked.
How I got my new cat.
Those things.
Now, as I am older,
I found the blogging world.
It brought back that feeling
of expression plus people
that read what I've said.
I don't have a lot who read.
What I've expressed.
Thus, I sometimes am thinking only of myself
when I write what I do.
Today is one of those days.
I am again fighting.
I am in trouble.
My kidney has decided to remind
me that I am in failure.
Oh I was pretending.
I like doing that.
So, this week after two weeks
of coughing and blowing of the nose
due to the nasty cold I got,
my kidney decides to act up.
I called and luckily I had one more
infection prescription left.
I've been taking it this week.
Saved me from having to call
my very busy kidney Dr.
He's so hard to get in to.
I have to schedule my big test.
The one that figures out how
much my left kidney functions.
I never did that after my big surgery.
My heart acted up and I did that surgery.
Then I took the rest of July and August
off to recover.
September was my enjoy month.
Now, it's October and it's back to reminding
me that I am indeed in kidney failure.
This morning was a big reminder.
I sit here looking up kidney failure.
The systems of sepsis.
Thinking can I get over this.
Is it just an infection.
I hope it is.
I want it to be.
I am alone in this fight.
This nasty surviving thing.
I don't want to do this.
I drink my coffee.
Cause I do that every morning.
I will then start to drink my gallons of water.
I will feel better.
I will.
This is not kidney failure.
This is not sepsis.
(I've had that before.)
I am just tired.
I will get better.
I have plans.
Mr. Boatman leaves for a whole week.
I am by myself for a week.
I have things to do.
I am talking to myself.
I feel better about this.
It is just an infection.
I'm a silly old lady.
~ JC ~
There comes a time in your life when you walk away from all of the drama and the people who create it. You surround yourself with people who make you laugh. Forget the bad and focus on the good. Love the people who treat you right and pray for those who don’t. Life is too short to be anything but happy. Falling down is part of life, getting back up is living.

~ Jose N. Harris

Characters In My Garden

Purr Gang ~ My five cats

Cats ~ Al, Ashton Rosevelt, Jasmine Marie, Riley Andrew & Meredith Ann

Fur Gang ~ Jodie Isabella and Sally Jean
(The Original member, Sweet Bella is in memory only now. Maddy Jean, another original member, past away in August of 2014)

Mr. Boatman ~ my husband who likes boats

DD ~ my daughter who graduated and is now out living in the real world

DS or Dson ~ my son is studying computer science and math

Maddy Jean & Bella

Maddy Jean & Bella
Both gone but never forgotten

Jodie Isabella

Jodie Isabella


I adopted him from our local Humane Society


Adopted from my local horse supply store


I adopted her from Purrfect Pals


I adopted him from the local Humane Society

Meredith Ann

Meredith Ann
I adopted her from Purrfect Pals