Friday, May 4, 2012

She Writes On Friday

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She sat in the office on that chair.
Leaning forward as he explained the results.
He was kind.
Tried to show her each image.
She came in for her back troubles.
Hadn't been able to walk on her leg for over a month.
He said two things showed up.
A day surgery is scheduled on her back.
The hope is it will improve her leg.
Then he showed her the other thing that showed up.
Not his territory at all.
The image was not good.
Words were said to her.
She looked at the picture.
He explained what a good one looks like
and what this bad one looked like.
Something about getting another test done.
Getting a new Dr. that specializes in this.
Doing this right away.
The look in his face said it.
She asked the question.
The words came out.
Is it cancer, she said.
He couldn't say but she needed to get
the new test done right away.
As he left and the nurse came in,
Paperwork and scheduling were done for the back surgery.
A day thing. Nothing big.
She walked out of the office to the lobby.
Looking back for just a moment.
That turn of the sore neck.
Just to make sure.
Did that all just happen ?
She sat down on a chair.
Looked at all the paperwork in her hand.
That's when the tears started.
She wiped them away.
Looked up and told her daughter,
who had been waiting in the lobby,
what had been told to her.
She explained how bad it looked.
Like it was a picture he had just been showing her.
One of those moments you hear about.
Like it's not you they are showing.
Just an image.
A really bad image.
So, the tears got wiped away and the papers folded.
She got up and walked to the elevators.
The new test she needed was downstairs.
Waited in line to schedule that.
Cried a bit in the car ride home.
Not letting her daughter see.
Got home to her cats and dogs.
Did normal things.
Looked at the paperwork and cried.
How did this happen ?
In the hallway, her daughter saw her.
They hugged.
And, the dog barked.
Life goes on.
She was not expecting this.
It isn't what she went in for.
Did this really happen ?
Yes, it did.
Appointments made.
The next weeks will be busy.
As she let her dog back in the house,
she noticed the yard guys had come while she was gone.
The green lawn looked so nice.
She went on with her day.

~ JC ~

11 comments:

Fuzzy Tales said...

Sending huge hugs, earnest prayers, universal Light and loud purrs.

I/we will cross our fingers and paws that this isn't cancer. Please don't despair...I know it's not the same thing, but one of the CB cats, Momo, was at the vet last week, presumed to have cancer. The vet was so sure, in fact, that he didn't feel a biopsy was warranted. But Momo's human, SS, insisted and it's turned out to be a benign swelling in the esophagus.

I can't say that your results will be as positive, though I hope and pray they will indeed be benign. I just mean to say that doctors--human and non--certainly don't know everything.

If you need a cyber "ear" you can email any time, either kea257 AT gmail DOT com or keas DOT fuzzy DOT tales AT gmail DOT com.

Universal Blessings and Peace.

Naturegirl said...

The newness of your diganosis and what's ahead is overwhelming I'm sure.I am glad that you reached out to your ciberfriends sharing this latest news with us. When one steps out into the darkness it is comforting to know that prayers can "light up our journey."
I will hold you dear JC in my daily prayers and I give you a hug for comfort.
We are dealing with serious health issues diagnosis with my 2 fur babies.. :(
love and light Anna

Remington said...

Beth here....My heart goes out to you, my friend. I am crying as I write this....the waiting, not knowing is so hard. To try and continue with a regular day....you are in my thoughts and prayers....it is so easy to say "oh don't worry, it will be okay"....but they aren't the ones going through it....my prayer for you is that all will be just fine and that the waiting will go by quickly....take care and know that others are thinking of you and praying for you....

Rose H (UK) said...

Sending many positive wishes that this can be sorted out successfully. I know what an awful shock this must be, hope our thoughts help ease your dismay.
{{Hugs}} from across the pond.
Rose H
xx

Lyn said...

Oh I do hope it all turns out ok. Sending good vibes and lots of love and hugs.
xxxxxx

Webster said...

JC, I'm sorry this has happened. I crossed my fingers that it was just some of your creative writing - but no; wrong blog for that. Cry into Meredith Ann's colorful furs - they may well have healing properties. Good Luck with your back surgery. Let's hope it takes that pain away for good. May your tests be, well, operable. You've been through enough of this crap.

Purrfect Haven said...

... what to say...? we love visiting you... and wallowing in your literary delights. Love Helen, Darcy and Bingley xxx

Brian said...

We are all sending you tons of purrs and we hope all will be okay for you.

clairz said...

Oh, my. Sending prayers, dear person.

Remington said...

I hope things are going okay with you....take care, my friend....

Katie Isabella said...

My dear...I will get my mom to earnestly pray for you.
XOXOX

There comes a time in your life when you walk away from all of the drama and the people who create it. You surround yourself with people who make you laugh. Forget the bad and focus on the good. Love the people who treat you right and pray for those who don’t. Life is too short to be anything but happy. Falling down is part of life, getting back up is living.

~ Jose N. Harris

Characters In My Garden

Purr Gang ~ My five cats

Cats ~ Al, Ashton Rosevelt, Jasmine Marie, Riley Andrew & Meredith Ann

Fur Gang ~ Jodie Isabella and Sally Jean
(The Original member, Sweet Bella is in memory only now. Maddy Jean, another original member, past away in August of 2014)

Mr. Boatman ~ my husband who likes boats

DD ~ my daughter who graduated and is now out living in the real world

DS or Dson ~ my son is studying computer science and math



Maddy Jean & Bella

Maddy Jean & Bella
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Jodie Isabella

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Al

Al
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Ashton

Ashton
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Jasmine

Jasmine
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Riley

Riley
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Meredith Ann

Meredith Ann
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