Thursday, July 28, 2011

Sweet Bella

This is the last photo taken of my Sweet Bella.
She was chilling out on her chair.
And, yes it was hers.
Actually any place she wanted to sit become hers.

It's been a hard couple of days.
Reality is setting in.

I'm still really mad at the universe
for taking away this lovely lady.

I wasn't ready.
I just took her in for what I thought was
an old lady 'hound dog' eye infection.
Some ointment for and maybe some blood work
because she was so tired.

Ends up my Sweet Bella
had a huge tumor that caused
internal bleeding.
By the time I got her to the vet,
it was too late.
They could not operate.
I had to let her sleep.

I'd been telling her to not be in a hurry.
To just fall a sleep.
She did do almost that.

I think my Bella stayed with me
as long as she could.
She didn't want to leave.
She loved life so much.

Damn I miss her.

The worst is on Maddy Jean.
She's looking for her in the yard.
Waiting for her to go outside.
I'm going with her everywhere.
Out in the rain I go.
Always telling her that sissy is sleeping.
And she is.
I hope Maddy Jean gets used to this.
Her best friend is gone.
My dog is sad.
I'm sad.

And, that is my Thursday Update.
I will survive this.
Maddy Jean will too.
It's just hard.
My heart is broken.
My dog is dead.

~ JC ~

33 comments:

Fuzzy Tales said...

I'm so, so sorry, more than words ever will express. I can't even see the screen properly, I'm crying so hard.

I know there is nothing to write that will ease your pain--oh, how I know this. But please be assured that you're being sent Love and Light for Peace and Strength.

(((Hugs)))

Kim

Rose H (UK) said...

My heart goes out to you and Maddy Jean. I'm so sorry that you've lost your dear friend and that it just didn't work out okay. Sending you both a {{hug}}. I'll be thinking about you...
Rose H
xx

clairz said...

Sending hugs.

Junior and Orion said...

Oh no! We arer so very sorry to read of Bella's passing. We are sending out our best purrs to help comfort you all and Meowm is sending out prayers and hugs for you!

ML said...

We are so sorry to hear that Sweet Bella ran off to the Bridge.
I know that they will hang on as long as they can out of love and devotion.
We are sending you soft kitty purrs and love.
Mom ML
KC
Missy Blue Eyes
Faith Boomerang
Sol
Smokey
Brutus Jr.

pee ess: Fuzzy Tales let us know and we are making a memorial badge for her to be posted on The Cat Blogosphere. And yes, the Cat Blogosphere is also for our woofie friends, all kinds of friends. My little tortie, KC, was raised by my minipoodle Bear. She still wants to play fetch like Bear taught her.

Cats of Wildcat Woods said...

Oh dear..we are so sorry you lost your beloved Bella. I too hoped she would be around for a while yet. Please do tell your other pets exactly what happened - they understand not in words but in thoughts and pictures in our mind what happened.
Sending deep purrs of sympathy to you all.

The Island Cats said...

We are so very sorry to hear about Bella. We send you comforting purrs, headbutts and hugs to help you through this difficult time.

Wally, Ernie, Zoey and mom Sue

Sabrina, Sam and Simon said...

JC, the Meezers and I are so, so sorry that Sweet Bella had to run off to the Bridge, we have leaky eyes after reading your poignant post about her. You and Maddy Jean are in our thoughts and prayers ...
Hugs,
Momma Jan, Sabrina, Sam and Simon

The Meezers or Billy said...

we are so very very sorry that Bella has gone to the Bridge. {{HUGS}} and purrrrrrrrsssssss to you.

Brian said...

I am so very, very sorry to hear about sweet Bella. There are never ever the right words, but we are all sending you many purrs, hugs and love. Run free sweet Bella, we shall always remember you.

Ikaika said...

We are so sorry that sweet Bella had to leave you and will keep you and Maddy Jean in our thoughts. Purrs and comforting energy coming your way.

Run free at the Bridge, sweet Bella ...

The Lee County Clowder said...

We never knew Bella, but it is clear she was loved, and loved in return.

Sending comforting purrrrrrsss and gentle headbutttss to you all.

"The Boys" and Karen said...

We're so sorry to learn about the loss of your beloved Bella.

She looks like she was a sweetheart.

When they go like that so suddenly it's so difficult to understand.

"The Boys" and I will keep her and you and your family in our thoughts and purryers.

Bellen said...

Condolences to you. There's no pain worse than a wounded heart. We get better after a while but the sad thing is, the heart stays wounded. I'm sorry.

Forty Paws said...

We are so sorry that Bella had a bad tumor and had to cross over. It is so difficult to lose a fur baby. We still miss Annie who just crossed over on July 4th. Many hugs and purrs and purrayers are coming to you from us.

Luf, Us and Maw

Remington said...

Tears are falling as I write this....my heart goes out to you. It is so hard to say goodbye to our friends....take care....

Marg said...

WE are so sorry about Bella. That is so hard. WE are sending lots of woofies and hugs to the Mom. Both of you will be our prayers for sure and in our thoughts.

FURKIDSMOM said...

You're in our prayers. Losing a furkid is so difficult. Angel Sniffie loved woofies and we're sure she welcomed Bella at the Bridge.

The Florida Furkids and Angel Sniffie

Jan's Funny Farm said...

We are very sorry for the loss of Bella. There's nothing we can say to ease your pain. She was loved. She will not be forgotten. Hugs, purrs and wags.

Laoch of Chicago said...

God how awful. Good wishes to you and your family during this dark time.

The Misadventures Of Me said...

Soar high Sweet Bella.

The mom is extra leaky after reading dis - our fur sisfur TT went to da bridge 3 years ago today.

Purrs and headbutts

Molly
Shadow
Trooder
Mooch

licks
I is Jake!!
Shana

(((hugs)))
Mom Laure

Sally in WA said...

Damn, I am sitting here with tears in my eyes. Just know I am thinking of you and sending you hugs. Words just can't express how I feel. I am so, so sorry for your loss, JC.

Naturegirl said...

I am saddened to read this news of your dear Bella passing over. I understand that your grief is deep,like a wound.I do believe that God gives us our precious pets to care for and love and when he's ready,calls them back.Just think Bella is now healed in no pain and you know what I bet if you look at the sky tonight there will be the "brightest star" yes your "Bella star!" Peace be to Bella and I send comfort to you.hugging you gently..I truly understand your sorrow.Anna

Cat said...

We are very sorry to hear your sad news. It is always so difficult to lose a trusted friend. Please accept my heartfelt condolences.

Judy said...

She had a good long life, and has gone to meet her Maker. No matter how much it hurts us to see them go, they have blessed us with their presence and their devotion! Thoughts and prayers to you and Maddy Jean!!

Sweet Purrfections and Angel Praline said...

I'm so sorry to hear about Bella! I know the pain that you are going through and how it can be so overwhelming. I still have some of those days, but it does get a little easier. In fact, I was talking to Auntie Deb today on the phone and started crying about Praline again right after laughing about the Truffle and Beignet. My thoughts are with you.

Mom Paula

meowmeowmans said...

We're so sorry to hear about Bella's passing. She was obviously an amazing dog. Thank you for loving her so very much. Please know you are in our thoughts and prayers.

ellen abbott said...

Oh, I'm so sorry. A similar thing happened to us. I miss her still. My daughter's dog (they lived next door and the dogs shared a yard) grieved terribly.

Fin said...

We are so sorry for your loss. When you said Bella was asleep the other day we didn't realize you meant that she had passed.

Purrs and hugs to you and yours at this awful time.

Everycat said...

We are so sorry to learn that Bella has gone to The Bridge. Such sudden departures leave a person shockingly raw from the pain. We send you love and purrs and hope that soon you will be able to think of Sweet Bella and smile again.

Sending you love and rumbly purrs

Oliver & Gerry

Cats~Goats~Quotes said...

We are so very sorry to read that Bella had to leave. What a wonderful friend she was.
Until we see you again, sweet Bella girl, Rest in Peace.
(((Hugs)))
~ The Bunch and Mom Bobbie

Tober the Cat said...

Oh, JC, I am so sorry about your beautiful Bella. My AAB got sad reading about her; she lost her little house-pet-cat Trey suddenly a few weeks ago. But we animals are lucky for the relatively short times we get to spend with "owners" like you. Purrs for you.

janis said...

Oh JC...tears fill my eyes.
love to you.
love to sweet Maddie JEan.
im so sorry dear...
Bella will always be with you in your heart.
my husband never had a pet before meeting me. when we loss our sweet Tanda, that was his first loss...he about died. swore he'd never go through this again and that he did not ever want to have a pet again. once i explained that the love they give...the gift they bring is so valuable, even if we only have them briefly, is worth the sorrow when they leave us. that what they have to give is a love like no other. that God shares them with us to make us better. he eventually caved (at the time we loss Tanda, we had another 2 cats & 2 dogs). In 25 years of marriage we have seen many pets enter, and leave our lives. it doesnt get easier. sometimes we get so made when one has a short life. but, i love them each as much as possible, give them the best lives i can and cherish ever precious moment. My Rocky is 18...he is senile, blind, and has difficulty walking. he seems to have a minimal amount of discomfort, but.. still has a good appetite, and purrs ever so sweetly as he is very happy & content. I fear that day is coming soon.. every day i cherish & spoil his old butt. but, i feel so blessed that he wandered to our door so many years ago choosing us to be his people. i am so grateful. and will love him forever. just like the many before and the several i currently have.
sorry this got so long. i just had to extend my love.
blessings~

There comes a time in your life when you walk away from all of the drama and the people who create it. You surround yourself with people who make you laugh. Forget the bad and focus on the good. Love the people who treat you right and pray for those who don’t. Life is too short to be anything but happy. Falling down is part of life, getting back up is living.

~ Jose N. Harris

Characters In My Garden

Purr Gang ~ My five cats

Cats ~ Al, Ashton Rosevelt, Jasmine Marie, Riley Andrew & Meredith Ann

Fur Gang ~ Jodie Isabella and Sally Jean
(The Original member, Sweet Bella is in memory only now. Maddy Jean, another original member, past away in August of 2014)

Mr. Boatman ~ my husband who likes boats

DD ~ my daughter who graduated and is now out living in the real world

DS or Dson ~ my son is studying computer science and math



Maddy Jean & Bella

Maddy Jean & Bella
Both gone but never forgotten

Jodie Isabella

Jodie Isabella

Al

Al
I adopted him from our local Humane Society

Ashton

Ashton
Adopted from my local horse supply store

Jasmine

Jasmine
I adopted her from Purrfect Pals

Riley

Riley
I adopted him from the local Humane Society

Meredith Ann

Meredith Ann
I adopted her from Purrfect Pals