Friday, August 28, 2009

Napping With My Purr Gang

I've been playing around with my blog layout. Trying to change the width of my columns. Which I think I've figured out. Which is amazing since I am totally not computer savvy ... at all. I even changed my photo for one of me waving at Mr. Boatman ... I'll keep it for a while.

I've been blogging for a few months now and it does seem that I'm slowing down. Blogging wise and in everything wise.

Summer is fabulous. I enjoy the Sun, taking naps with the dogs & cats, watering the barrels in the driveway ... even though it was hot today. That's the reason I went in & ended up taking a nap with the Purr Gang. Was lovely to wake up & have most of them with me.

It is a bit sad though ... that Summer is ending. I felt it this morning. A chill was in the morning air. My daughter has already left for college. My son starts back next week. He's not happy about it but off he will go in a few days. My baby is going to be a Junior in High School. That is making me old ... older than I already feel.

This week I've been in a lot of pain. And, I mean A LOT !!! My good side ... if I actually have one ... is acting up. My right back hip area is telling me nasty things. It's telling me that the Dr's are waiting for me to call. That the infusion chair is calling my name. That the frustrations of them either finding out what's wrong or not finding out what's wrong will continue. I am not ready yet. I will keep buying the whole store out of Pain Patches for old Ladies.

I've been to so many Dr's about my nerve pain. Two pain clinics. Each time I had two steroid epidural procedures done on my left back area. Each time I was told this wouldn't last long. With that look, from the nurse. Which told me, oh man I'm glad it's you and not me.

I've been lucky and haven't had a lot of trouble until now. (Let's not forget the coma and relearning to walk and talk but that's got nothing to do with my nerve pain.) Only now it's on my right side. My good side. The side that I've had trouble with ever since I woke up almost four years ago. (I was left with a weakness on my right side with nerve pain.)

You can't believe how much I try to pretend that I don't live in pain. I do everything to forget. It works most days. Cause it's all a mental game. It has to be. And, add that I still have some brain damage ... and when I was recovering and dealing with all of that pain, I told myself I just wanted to go home. Well, I'm here .. I got what I asked for.

Only I think time has caught up with me. I can not hide from the evil pain that lingers ... waiting to attack me. This week it won. This week I cried like a baby. I haven't done that in a long time. I don't feel sorry for myself too often. What happens in life ... well, it just happens. I always try to keep on going. Only this week ... it got to me. It really did.

Maybe cause I had such a great time at the Ocean .. celebrating my birthday. I did not hurt that week. I think that's why I wanted to put that pic up as my main photo. Me waving while playing in the waves. My fear is that this pain will get me again. I won't be able to walk ... again. (That's happened to me four times now.) I even had to get out my blue parking sticker. The kind they give out to the permanently handicapped. Yes, I qualified a few years ago. It's just that I'd been doing so good. I hardly ever use it ... only, now I'm back to being that lady who needs it. I've even gotten my cain out and when I go in my car, I see my walker hanging on the wall. I refuse to talk to it. I will not ever use that again. I won't.

So, while my back has been causing me trouble ... I've taken a few naps with my Purr Gang. Pain makes me tired and I've been really tired this week.

I know I'm saying too much but it's my blog and I can say what I want.

I'm going to show you some more photos from my vacation cause it makes me happy ...

And, tomorrow is another day ..
I hope it will be better for all of us

14 comments:

Sherri said...

JC I love the picture of you waving at Mr. Boatman! I love the ocean behind you too! What a lovely, picturesque place.

The Kool-Kittie-Krew said...

Your pictures are stunning. Looks so calm and serene, that it makes us want to take a nap!

The Curious Cat said...

Oh dear, I really feel for you - but I can see something linked here - when you are happy the pain seems to subside...when you're blue (even if it is a simple downer after your birthday) it seems to flair up? Sounds like you just need to squeeze as much happiness and fun into every day as possible... I hate to think of people suffering. My mum's best friend has MS. Slowly over time she has been reduced to a bed and now she cannot talk or feed herself. Every time my mum goes to see her it is that much harder for her to see her friend in this way.
You want to do so much but what can you do? Ah life can be so cruel...okay now I feel down...but whilst there is time and we can get about and do things - there is sooo much to live for - like sunny days on the beach! Keep your chin up. The purr gang are there for you too! xxx

Laila and Minchie said...

Us kitties have magical healing powers. Just sayin...

(((HUGS))) and purrs

Cassie said...

Hate that you are having such a rough go. Thanks for stopping by my house (blog) I am going to sit by the mailbox and await the box of Tupperware you promised HeHe. Here's to hoping that tomorrow is a better day.

Herrad said...

Hi JC,

Love the photo of you waving.
Hope your pain calms down and lets you have a good weekend.
Love,
Herrad

JC said...

I redid my blog pic .. again. Noticed I had a typo ... same pic just new words..

I am on ice .. literally. A pack of blue ice ... than an pain patch after a while.

Sore as can be but I am hoping that this will go away soon.

Like I said, I always keep trying ... all a mental game.

Hope you all have a Peaceful Weekend with your purrballs

Cassie ... And, when I can I'll be sending off that box of tupperware ... except for the green salad bowl which I noticed you already had ...

Reese =^..^= said...

I love that new header. The ocean will cure what ails ya.....at least for a minute or two. Feel well, my friend.

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dog trot farm said...

Where ever you are it is just lovely. A walk on the beach with the sound of the surf in your ear always makes me feel better I hope it works for you too. Blessings to you.

Cindy said...

JC--I enjoy the seeing the ocean, too. Only the last time I just dipped my feet since I thought my washing machine broke & didn't want to bring to much sandy stuff (beach blankets) home. It's so hard for me to savor the vacation. Hopefully a walk on the Wildwood, NJ boardwalk next weekend may help. At least God made beautiful pets for us.

Da Fambly Cat-a-blog Kittiez said...

They've been wanting to give me the shots in my back but I've been putting it off. Back pain is miserable but I don't want to do something that will make me even more miserable☺

Keeping you close to my heart. I know what living with pain is like and it can take any energy you have left and suck it right out of you.

Laoch of Chicago said...

Being in constant pain is awful I hope it subsides for you.

I used a cane after my stroke. I found it comforting I guess in a strange way.

KathyB. said...

I love your new header and it is even more special with your explanation of it, waving to your husband!

When I am in pain or distress my cats snuggling with me and purring as I rest seem the best medicine. For some reason the cats just help me relax, my heart beat slows down and I am comforted, very, very much. It is good you have some of this medicine too. ( I think hospitals should prescribe them for their patients while IN the hospital)

There comes a time in your life when you walk away from all of the drama and the people who create it. You surround yourself with people who make you laugh. Forget the bad and focus on the good. Love the people who treat you right and pray for those who don’t. Life is too short to be anything but happy. Falling down is part of life, getting back up is living.

~ Jose N. Harris

Characters In My Garden

Purr Gang ~ My five cats

Cats ~ Al, Ashton Rosevelt, Jasmine Marie, Riley Andrew & Meredith Ann

Fur Gang ~ Jodie Isabella and Sally Jean
(The Original member, Sweet Bella is in memory only now. Maddy Jean, another original member, past away in August of 2014)

Mr. Boatman ~ my husband who likes boats

DD ~ my daughter who graduated and is now out living in the real world

DS or Dson ~ my son is studying computer science and math



Maddy Jean & Bella

Maddy Jean & Bella
Both gone but never forgotten

Jodie Isabella

Jodie Isabella

Al

Al
I adopted him from our local Humane Society

Ashton

Ashton
Adopted from my local horse supply store

Jasmine

Jasmine
I adopted her from Purrfect Pals

Riley

Riley
I adopted him from the local Humane Society

Meredith Ann

Meredith Ann
I adopted her from Purrfect Pals