Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Thoughts on Tuesday

I started with hope.
The thought that my life could improve.
There were pictures of what might be.
I ended up with quiet.
The peace I needed.
Only it was too much.
I ran as fast as I could.
Back to my old life.
I'm comfortable here.
At least I know the view.
Problems that I left linger.
I am a broken mess.
Not welcomed or needed
in either world.
I am on my own.
Left to wonder.
I'm doing the best I can.
(From the outside, I don't think I look as bad as I feel.)
I just needed a few days of rest.
To stop the constant motion
of the world that I live.
I only have one question ..
Who ever thought it would
be this hard just to breath ?

~ JC ~
(These are my thoughts on this quiet Tuesday.
My life is a mess emotionally.
I'm working hard to get it back in balance.
I'm fine. I'm not lost.
 I'm just yelling back at the world
for making it so hard to breath.)


Brian said...

Well, there's a lot to be said for normal!

Kea said...

(((Hugs))) and Light from me.

I've often thought, in recent years, that if I were to have a headstone on a grave (not going to happen, I want to be cremated and my ashes scattered), I would want the words to read," She did the best she could."

What else can we say except that we've done the best we can, with our issues? How fortunate other animals are, not to be burdened mentally and emotionally!

Peace and Blessings,


Marg said...

I agree with Kim, that all we can do is the best we know how. We do need to study the animals and see how they live. But they don't have to provide for food for anyone. Anyway, try and be positive about life. There is always something good. Take care.

Amy and The House of Cats said...

I hate that you are an emotional mess but sadly I can relate (as I sit here at work crying for no reason other than being here). It is hard to get things back to in balance and it is good to yell back at the world sometimes - the world kind of deserves it most of the time.

There comes a time in your life when you walk away from all of the drama and the people who create it. You surround yourself with people who make you laugh. Forget the bad and focus on the good. Love the people who treat you right and pray for those who don’t. Life is too short to be anything but happy. Falling down is part of life, getting back up is living.

~ Jose N. Harris

Characters In My Garden

Purr Gang ~ My five cats

Cats ~ Al, Ashton Rosevelt, Jasmine Marie, Riley Andrew & Meredith Ann

Fur Gang ~ Jodie Isabella and Sally Jean
(The Original member, Sweet Bella is in memory only now. Maddy Jean, another original member, past away in August of 2014)

Mr. Boatman ~ my husband who likes boats

DD ~ my daughter who graduated and is now out living in the real world

DS or Dson ~ my son is studying computer science and math

Maddy Jean & Bella

Maddy Jean & Bella
Both gone but never forgotten

Jodie Isabella

Jodie Isabella


I adopted him from our local Humane Society


Adopted from my local horse supply store


I adopted her from Purrfect Pals


I adopted him from the local Humane Society

Meredith Ann

Meredith Ann
I adopted her from Purrfect Pals