These are the flowers that were sitting on my table when I got home from my Birthday Weekend. My daughter had left a few hours before me and I was more than thrilled to see these welcoming me home. The baking shop item will make pecan bars. I love pecan pie so this will be something to make on the next cold day.
My birthday was so much fun. I'm really too old for this kind of thing. Went to the mall and looked around. Ended up getting some opal earrings to go with the necklace that Mr. Boatman had shocked me with last December.
I brought my sand dollars home. Have them in a bag for now. Will be putting them in a location soon.
My dog, Bella, isn't do well at all. If you remember, she had that nasty infection and hematoma in her ear. She's still on meds for that. Done with the prednizone though which we thought was the cause of her moistening problems. I found out yesterday that my Bella also has a bad bladder infection. She is on meds for that and the lab results ... yes, more money spent on that very expensive lab ... will return later this week. Vet said he hadn't seen anything that bad in forever.
We are supposed to go camping for a few days. The girls were going to their spa location. Now, I don't know if I should leave her there. The campground also called yesterday ... yesterday was the day for things ... and a tree is about to fall and they took away our campsite on the river. They left a message that they relocated us to another site. We looked on line and it's not on the water but in the back woods listed as walk in only. So, we are trying to decide what to do. Also, the nice weather is now cloudy so the camping trip will be just a bit chilly.
My migraines have been rather mean to me lately. And, I am being polite. My right side is in a fight for it's survival. I am dizzy. I can't see out of that eye .. that comes and goes ... due to the blurries. My throat freezes up and I talk weird. My face freezes and I can't move it. My leg goes numb. Then, it all goes back to normal to start all over again.
I keep trying to pretend that this is normal. It's not normal at all. I know most would go to a Dr. in a full speed run but not me. I've been to so many Dr's in my life. Most tell me it's all in my head ... which I know ... and I end up going to my car crying. Last time I did that I told myself never again. Also, Mr. Boatman's new job ... he's been there almost a year now ... has terrible insurance and I mean terrible. Even if I did go to a Dr. I'd be paying for the mri's and all the meds myself. So, I hope this is just migraines resulting from my coma. (I was told that my coma caused my headaches to be different but this is nuts ... cashew nuts ... and I'm not a squirrel)
So, as I watch my birds and yes, a few squirrels, I wonder if this could be my last birthday. I even said that out loud. I had such a nice time that I thought ... maybe there is a reason I'm having so much fun. And, if this was my last birthday .. man, it was a good one.
I just worry about my cats and my old dogs. I hope to continue on until they are gone. I'm just asking for ten or so more years. Baby Kitty Riley would be fourteen. Am I being greedy ? Yes, I am.
I figured that I got another chance when I woke up from my coma. It's been almost five years of me fighting to survive. To relearn to walk and talk and get most of my memories back. Fighting the constant things that continue to happen to me. I know deep inside that I am running out of time. At least it feels like it this time. So, if I don't blog as much as I used too ... just know that I am trying ... to hang on ... to keep on going.
I sit here in the woods with my fabulous purr gang and my two adorable dogs. I will win. I am a survivor. This headaches will go away. I can do this. I can do this. I can do this. I can do this.
~ JC ~