I can't tell ya the lousy day I had yesterday
Oh I can
So I will
Most of you know that I woke up from my coma almost four years ago
After the .. dah ... who are you ... where am I ... oh I can't move
Reality of my new life .. there were the Headaches
Always, never ending, not leaving, no bag packed
After going to my Dr's and them telling me it was just a new type
of after the coma ... Headache .. I was sent on my Merry way.
Did I just say Merry ...
So, I live with this ... this body I woke up with ... not that I'm
complaining ... ok, I am but I don't all the time ...
I live with whatever I wake up with each morning
Mostly a weakness on my right side
It comes and goes depending on the will of the after the coma gods
And I don't mean the God that everyone talks to on Sundays
I mean the Oh My God .. God ... the mean one that causes havic
In nice, at least I try to be, I think I am, people who try to keep on going
Why am I Crabby today ... which really I'm not ... if you lived in my old
body for just one of my weird, odd, terrible, exhausting ... session
You would know what I go through ... what is a normal thing for me
Yesterday, I felt a bit out of it. Thought I was tired cause of the dogs
getting me up at 2:30. Took it slow. Decided to take a sort of nap
with my girls. Felt a bit better but still like a Mean Migraine
was waiting to pounce on me. Which it did.
My son, who should have his license by now but doesn't, calls to have
me pick him up. On the way home, he asked to go to the grocery store.
Simple request one would think. Within a few blocks, my right side goes
and I mean it's like it isn't there. Not numb .. just not there. I pull over as
soon as I can. It gets a bit better. We decide the best thing is to continue
to the store. I make it. By the time he gets out of the store, I can't move
my face on the right side. My voice has gone but only on the right side.
I can still use my foot to drive but I'm really just using my left side for everything.
We get home. I feel a bit better. That one is over. My leg and arm go
numb. Limp ... thump. I start talking fast. I start talking jumble. I go to
bed but not before calling Mr. Boatman to ask him to bring something
home for dinner. I left him the message on his phone.
I wake up after taking a nap with my dogs and cats. I love them. I know
I talk about them a lot. They seem to know when something is going on
with me. I don't think I could do this without them. Just saying.
As the night goes on, I improve. Then the pain of the headache arrives.
The previous attack was the start. The pain part is actually better. The
face is better now so I can talk only I don't really feel like talking.
Now my pinch nerve on my right side is acting up.
I think cause well ... why not.
So, this morning all I am left with is a pain in my neck and a hope that
this is all in yesterday. I try to pretend this doesn't happen to me.
There isn't anything I can do. It's what we do .. isn't it ... to continue on.
I just had to tell someone. Cause it's my blog and I can say what I want.
I don't even feel sorry for myself. I'm lucky to have had these four years.
I wasn't supposed to live. I'm Lucky. It's just that lucky had a bad day.
So, how was your day ?